30 JUN

My home never felt this far.

I wanna write this post yesterday actually, but tiredness wins. Erm, you might be asking, why yesterday?Hehe This is because yesterday was 30 JUN 2016, my birthday! I was officially 18. I know 18 will be tough as life will never be easy. It was my first birthday which I celebrate it in a new environment (I went home yesterday at 7 p.m tho) At 12 midnight of 30 Jun, I received a phone call from Quak, which I never thought about it. She wished me and asked me how am I doing. After chatting for 20 mins, I opened my WC. Damn XQ wishes makes my eyes brim with tears. Everything she wrote is so true. We used to be so close, but now, so far in distance. Then, another surprised phone call from my brother. Damn again, I cried! This is the first time he phoned me to wish me and also post wishes on my facebook wall. Maybe he knew his little sis is alone that time haha.

          Throughout the day, I received many wishes. Actually I started receive advance wishes two days ago as one of the Chinese of KMK realised my birthday thru my IC number. Then they started to wish me even though they don't even know me. My phone was keep on vibrating when I was having my tutorial class yesterday haha! Thanks for Plan B bought a cake for me and surprised me in my hostel. Thanks for stalker gang makes me feel like they always be my side. Thanks for everyone who gives me warm wishes. I'm truly, honestly appreciate it.

        30 JUN was the day I stayed in KMK for one week. It was a brand a new life for me. I got 3 Malay roommates in my room. They are quite nice and friendly. We chat a lot. I even had a midnight talk with one of them. My class is K5S1T5. Classmates are quite nice. But feel sorry them, I still can't remember some of their names. This class is a very multiracial class. We have Malays, Chinese, Indians, Sabahrian and Siamese. Hope I have a wonderful 9 months with them. We have tutorial class , kuliah class and amali class. My tutorial lecturer quite good, especially for English subject. I hope I can have some improve on my English under her teaching. Some of my kuliah lecturer was like singing lullaby in the class. I just can't control myself to fall asleep.

          9 months is short. I will try my best to enjoy the life to the max. Study hard. Play hard.

New LIFE gonna start!

Life begins when you leave your comfort zone.

I had insomnia last night and only manage to sleep at 3 something, and I wake up at 6 o'clock. Bad sleep. Bad day? Nop, it should be a good day. A very good day. I get the offer of matriculation as I wished too. I wanted it so badly before and I thought I will be on cloud nine when I get it. And yes I did. I did felt happy, but only for the several minutes. The happiness is so transient. I start to think about all sort of things that I will be facing next week and all kind of feeling just fill to the brim of my heart. I have to live without family, without my bed, without house wifi and loo. I have to get my three meals on myself, wash clothes on myself, and many many things with myself without family. How sad I am. This is a process that everyone of us has to experience, just it comes soon or later. We have to leave our comfort zone. I know this. So I think I should a positive view to look on this and not the sad one. Sometimes I just hate myself, the ungrateful one.

         I'm going to leave this my lil hometown next week, and this means I have to stop my Form 6 life. I stayed in Form 6 one month yet so many memories created. The moment we stayed in class and made fun, the adventure of  Kem Palas. The fatigue when we have to climb up four floors to our class, climb up three floors for PA class and four floors to the Bio Lab, I will never forget that tiredness!! And ya, today Happython is so much fun with my fellow classmates. So much laughter when I be with you all. Besides, frankly speaking, I love the teachers of my class. They are so hardworking and some are so nice. Especially my biology teacher. She is really a good teacher! She is a former F6 student, so she knows how to let us understand better. Her teaching method is the best, indeed. Also thanks for some teachers who care for me. Really appreciate with my whole heart.

          All teachers said , F6 life is harder and Matrik Life is so much easier, but you will become a well-rounded student as you studied hard and performance well in koku in Form 6. F6 students will always be the favorite of lecturer in University due to the knowledge they gain and the leadership they have. So, I tell myself, Study like you are a form 6 student, Live like you are a matriculation student. For few hours ago, I still wondering should I take Physic. I've make up my mind now, if there is a chace, I will take it. Physic is tough tho, I believe study hard and smart can make me tackle it. And here is my target - Able to speak fluent English, write good English by June 2017.

          Present is precious. I like to flashback the feeling I had on the past moment, that particular moment. Maybe after 10 months, I still feeling sad about matrik, but the reluctant one. Maybe, who knows? It just like you won't start read this post with a same feeling, thought and perspective like the one you had before. Life is about present moment! And yea, I almost forget, actually the saddest thing is I can't watch Troye's video and stalk jy and zz like I used to do. Is this the main reason that I'm so mushy? I don't know. Anyhow, I wanna let myself stay positive and embrace my new life!