2016 Review

I am not sure I wan to grow up anymore.

Why I feel I just wrote a review for 2015 and here is the time for 2016. I seriously feel that 2016 doesn't have 12 months. Tell me 2016 doesn't reach the end yet!

         2016. A year which I didn't live like the past 17 years. I experienced so much things this year. So much ups and downs. All sort of glory and setback. Sometimes, I just hate this. Hate 18. Hate why I have to experience so many new things. Why I could just live like the past 17 years - Wake up at home, Go school, Go tuition, Everyday meet my good old friends......These things just never happened in 2016 tho. 2016 taught me, Nothing is permanent. We always gotta go thru some changes. And those changes will bring the best lesson of life .

          I feel like I've wasted few months of 2016, Jan to April. What I can recall back about this long holidays is I sat on the couch and watched drama. Perhaps I just spent too much time on my couch. I experienced quite many things in this few month. For instances, I got my driving license, and also my SPM result. In May, I started my Form 6 Life. Before that, I received the upset news which I didn't get the offer for matriculation. I went for some interviews and exams. I even went to the Bahagian Matrikulasi to make appeal. And thanks God, I was shortlisted in second batch. From July toward Dec, I just had my life in KMK.

           I seem like never really thanks my family in my past year review. I gotta do for this year. They did a lot for me this year. I was so sorry that I brought so much worry for u all this year, especially the time when I didn't got the first offer from matriculation. I will always remember the KL trip. Thanks for all the sacrifices. Seriously, I appreciate them with my whole-hearted. I promise you all, CGPA 4.0 Okay?

          I gotta say goodbye to you, 2016, a year which I have so many improvement on myself. I read English fiction by this year, this is what I always want to do since so many years ago. Perseverance finally wins this year. Also, I can live without my family in this year. I had become an independent girl. (Not that independent sometimes tho)

          I am so grateful for everything. Thanks 2016 and Bye.

Sem Break Ended.

Sem break ended. Time is merciless. As always.

          I already start sem two PnP. So far so good for all the kuliah lecturer and tutor. The worst one must be Bio tutor and I only have her class on Tues. Ok just wait and see tomorrow. I wanna see how far can she torture me. Yesterday I had BI class. Miss told us we only left 9 weeks for muet speaking test and 12 weeks more for the rest papers. OMG When three weeks holiday passed so faast, i believe that 9 weeks will be at a glance. I will endeavour to prepare well and got a good grade. I have to make a promise to myself. =(.

          Lets talk about my sem break. It was great indeed. I spent all the time laying on the couch for drama,show and novel tho, I totally enjoy on it. In this holiday, I read Tuesday with Morrie. It's so awesome. After the reading, I totally amazed by the wisdom of Prof. Morrie. He gave the greatest lesson of life for Mitch, and Mitch shared all of it with us.

          During Sem Break, I had a wonderful Penang trip with stalkers. It was almost one year since last time we went to penang together. For this trip, not all of us joined. One of the saddest thing after graduation for secondary school - we guys not always have holiday at the same time. For example, when everyone just starts to enjoy their holiday then Imma coming back to this forest. Okay.

          I also have some precious time with my XJ Baes. They make me totally forget that I had to go back to KMK on the next day. They were so crazy. The sound of chit-chatting between us totally broke the record of the Stalker Gang. We screamed! We had our dinner at Kin Restaurant. Yea, Korean food again. We fond of Korean food. And again, it almost one year since we had Kangnaru in SP. The crazy days in YY house, unforgettable. After dinner, we went to HanChiang as the PXY was carried out that time. Hope every newbies enjoy themselves in XJ. Don't make regret in your XJ life. You only have your youth once. Paint them with XJ. Your youth will be more colourful than anybody else.

          Hope everything goes smooth.

C'est La Vie

Tough situation I'll be facing few weeks more - Choosing courses for my degree. 

I asked my sis, '' Any recommended courses? '' She replied, ''Just follow your heart. Choose the subject you interested in.'' I know how important this decision influenced the rest of my life. 

           I admit that I am coward. I love sciences ( Except Physics). But then, recently, I decided to take Accouting Courses for my degree. It's okay to my parents. They always think that account is better than sciences. They feel that there is a higher chances for those who study account to find a better job. But, for my friends, most of them were surprised and asked why? I took account subject in high school. But I dont know it well. Or I should said, All I know is just the basic, the things I've learned. I don't spend a lot time with it. One week only two hours for Acc tuition. To me, I don't hate it, and maybeI love it. But I'm not sure that whether I can let it accompany me for the rest of my days. I don't know whether my passion toward Acc will everlast anot. You might be asking, then why don't you choose Sciences Subject. As I said, I am coward! I want to become a lecturer. Lecturer in MY required PhD holder. I'm scared that I will become crazy if I take Sciences Subject Til PhD. No joke! I really scared.

          We can't do things without passion. I always love passionate person. And of course, the passionate me toward something that I really like. I'm not that kind person with strong determination. Sometimes, I give up easily. I won't force myself to do the things that I don't like. I only do the things thay I like, the things that I have passion toward it. That's why, I am wondering about my future. I ain't going to force the rest my life to force myself doing something that I dont like. I ain't going to live such life. But seriously, I don't know Sc or Acc will be the best choice. 

          C'est La Vie.  Life is about decision making. Once you make the move, there is no undo button. You can't go back and make the decision again. The only things you can do is, keep move on, whether you are sick with it or in love with it. Life is cruel, isn't it? 

          Or maybe, I shouldn't think this much. Present is precious. I should've just enjoy movie at this moment. Or mapling. Future just leave it for future. 

不要为明天忧虑，因为明天自有明天的忧虑；一天的难处一天担当就够了。

SEM ONE CHECKED.

I didn't come this far, to only come this far.

Not willing to believe that, sem one ended like this. Throughout this sem, I experienced a lot of things. All those lil things just filled my KMK Life bits by bits. And after half year ,it will be fulled and I have to keep it deep inside my heart and called it as memories.

          I just finished my PSPM ( Final). For those sciences paper, I think I'm doing quite well, but maths paper just spoilt everything. Seriously, the first time I'm so frus with maths paper. I don't have enough time to finish all the questions. Even tho I have enough time, seriously speaking, I don't know how to answer some of them. Actually the saddest thing wasn't that I don't know how to answer, but is the sacrifices I put on it was meaningless. I scare that the time I spent for maths throughout this sem is just a waste. DAMN.  How if I can't get 4Flat, How if I can't get the course I want, How if I'm not qualified to USM.  Ok STOP THE SADNESS PLS. It's sem break. I'm going enjoy it to the max before facing the next sem.

          Actually I intended to blog every weekend. I want to record down every single thing. But so sad, there are so many work waiting for me. And of course, excuses. It's hard to stop my laziness. Being lazy is one of my awesome personality. Keke, so now let me just flashback what I've experience throughout this sem.

My lovely classmates. #K5S1T5

Jamuan Raya.

The sky is so nice til we purposely climb
 to the highest aras to take picture

Chinese in KMK (not complete)

Kai Jia's birthday celebration

Jia Jee's birthday celebration

Hehe.

Exercise once in a time

Flower blossom

While waiting my pal member come #Eating Squad

We are the champion in the game of Saving Chang Er
 in the mooncake festival event. #PlanA

The guy is Chang Er. XD

Patners in crime #Kuliah 5

3 Kedahan and 1 Perak Kia #PokemonGo

AJK for Larian Merdeka

AJK for SPRK

Just boss.

First outing of sem one, and also the last one.

My favourite food in KMK.

Sin Min Gang

Pratikum A

When we join sr's bio kuliah
since our bio kuliah srs beh ki

K5 wf lovely Madam Kang

Should be an english essay discussion
but everyone is using calculator

New skill learned.

Presentation

Everyday's routine : Kacau Yap

Bye Sem One

          So much things happened in this sem and I'm truly appreciate it. 

          

          Hi Sem Two, I'm coming.

30 JUN

My home never felt this far.

I wanna write this post yesterday actually, but tiredness wins. Erm, you might be asking, why yesterday?Hehe This is because yesterday was 30 JUN 2016, my birthday! I was officially 18. I know 18 will be tough as life will never be easy. It was my first birthday which I celebrate it in a new environment (I went home yesterday at 7 p.m tho) At 12 midnight of 30 Jun, I received a phone call from Quak, which I never thought about it. She wished me and asked me how am I doing. After chatting for 20 mins, I opened my WC. Damn XQ wishes makes my eyes brim with tears. Everything she wrote is so true. We used to be so close, but now, so far in distance. Then, another surprised phone call from my brother. Damn again, I cried! This is the first time he phoned me to wish me and also post wishes on my facebook wall. Maybe he knew his little sis is alone that time haha.

          Throughout the day, I received many wishes. Actually I started receive advance wishes two days ago as one of the Chinese of KMK realised my birthday thru my IC number. Then they started to wish me even though they don't even know me. My phone was keep on vibrating when I was having my tutorial class yesterday haha! Thanks for Plan B bought a cake for me and surprised me in my hostel. Thanks for stalker gang makes me feel like they always be my side. Thanks for everyone who gives me warm wishes. I'm truly, honestly appreciate it.

        30 JUN was the day I stayed in KMK for one week. It was a brand a new life for me. I got 3 Malay roommates in my room. They are quite nice and friendly. We chat a lot. I even had a midnight talk with one of them. My class is K5S1T5. Classmates are quite nice. But feel sorry them, I still can't remember some of their names. This class is a very multiracial class. We have Malays, Chinese, Indians, Sabahrian and Siamese. Hope I have a wonderful 9 months with them. We have tutorial class , kuliah class and amali class. My tutorial lecturer quite good, especially for English subject. I hope I can have some improve on my English under her teaching. Some of my kuliah lecturer was like singing lullaby in the class. I just can't control myself to fall asleep.

          9 months is short. I will try my best to enjoy the life to the max. Study hard. Play hard.

New LIFE gonna start!

Life begins when you leave your comfort zone.

I had insomnia last night and only manage to sleep at 3 something, and I wake up at 6 o'clock. Bad sleep. Bad day? Nop, it should be a good day. A very good day. I get the offer of matriculation as I wished too. I wanted it so badly before and I thought I will be on cloud nine when I get it. And yes I did. I did felt happy, but only for the several minutes. The happiness is so transient. I start to think about all sort of things that I will be facing next week and all kind of feeling just fill to the brim of my heart. I have to live without family, without my bed, without house wifi and loo. I have to get my three meals on myself, wash clothes on myself, and many many things with myself without family. How sad I am. This is a process that everyone of us has to experience, just it comes soon or later. We have to leave our comfort zone. I know this. So I think I should a positive view to look on this and not the sad one. Sometimes I just hate myself, the ungrateful one.

         I'm going to leave this my lil hometown next week, and this means I have to stop my Form 6 life. I stayed in Form 6 one month yet so many memories created. The moment we stayed in class and made fun, the adventure of  Kem Palas. The fatigue when we have to climb up four floors to our class, climb up three floors for PA class and four floors to the Bio Lab, I will never forget that tiredness!! And ya, today Happython is so much fun with my fellow classmates. So much laughter when I be with you all. Besides, frankly speaking, I love the teachers of my class. They are so hardworking and some are so nice. Especially my biology teacher. She is really a good teacher! She is a former F6 student, so she knows how to let us understand better. Her teaching method is the best, indeed. Also thanks for some teachers who care for me. Really appreciate with my whole heart.

          All teachers said , F6 life is harder and Matrik Life is so much easier, but you will become a well-rounded student as you studied hard and performance well in koku in Form 6. F6 students will always be the favorite of lecturer in University due to the knowledge they gain and the leadership they have. So, I tell myself, Study like you are a form 6 student, Live like you are a matriculation student. For few hours ago, I still wondering should I take Physic. I've make up my mind now, if there is a chace, I will take it. Physic is tough tho, I believe study hard and smart can make me tackle it. And here is my target - Able to speak fluent English, write good English by June 2017.

          Present is precious. I like to flashback the feeling I had on the past moment, that particular moment. Maybe after 10 months, I still feeling sad about matrik, but the reluctant one. Maybe, who knows? It just like you won't start read this post with a same feeling, thought and perspective like the one you had before. Life is about present moment! And yea, I almost forget, actually the saddest thing is I can't watch Troye's video and stalk jy and zz like I used to do. Is this the main reason that I'm so mushy? I don't know. Anyhow, I wanna let myself stay positive and embrace my new life!

First Camping Experience

Run Wild. Live Free.

I still can't believe, I've back from PISPA Camp. I've survived! It was a brand new experience for me. It wasn't like the other camp I've joined before. This was a real camping life. REAL CAMPING LIFE. It was a rush camp. We only get the notice from the Government three days before the camp. Nobody was willing to go. However, some of us volunteer to go after Cik Suppa keep on persuading us. And ya, I'm one of them. Don't ask me why, probably my brain malfunction that time. Ex-President of Chinese Orchestra Team joining PISPA Camping - What a joke?

          Like almost 3.30 p.m, we started our journey to Kem Palas. We shared one bus with Form Six students of Ibrahim and St Thresa School. They are really great! We took our luggage down together. Then after a short briefing, we started to set up our tent. First experience to set up tent. We gals set up the three tents together. Don't ever look down on the power of teamwork. After photograph session, we waited for M to pray. My friends and I really wondered why we were there. From that moment onward, we started to countdown. LOL! I think that time we not even at there for 2 hours and we already wanted to go back. Then, we were given time to bath. I'm totally shocked when I stepped into the bathroom. Everyone was wearing sarung and bath in front of everyone! M just take it easy and C and I almost crazy. Ok again, first experience to wear sarung and bath in front of everyone (Erm, definitely no boys there) The most struggle thing is how to take off our clothes and wear clothes. However, three days camping made me learned the technique. (You can come to ask for it if you need it XD) After a very un-tasty and spicy dinner, we were forced to listen two boring talks and I almost slept. The following activity is the best activity I think in that three days. We had a short highway-walk. After we walked more or less 1 km, we laid on the tar road to see the stars, moon and cloud. The sky of that night was so nice. Night sky is always nice, yet we don't even have the time to look at it, to enjoy it as our life in town is always so hectic. I even have the chance to have a glance of fireflies, which is so rare in town. I also think of TFIOS. Maybe is the star shines so bright and I never noticed before. After that, we went back to campsite,had a writing report and we were asked to sleep. That night was so hot. Inside the tent is so hot like there were no air inside and u can commit suicide inside the tent.

          On the next day, we woke up at 5.45 a.m (because outside too noisy) We had a marching training on the morning. Hahah quite fun. I never try before since I am a SMCO member. After that,our face were applied with charcoal. Argh, my face is allergic with it! Wanna slap those instructors so much. LOL, we hate them so much. We even gave them nickname and composed songs for them especially Crocodile and Colour Wolf. That crocodile eyes really funny hahaha. Ehem back to story. We went to forest to have lesson and prepare for lunch. There were many mosquitoes in that forest. REALLY MANY! GG. Some RCST issues happened in our platun when we prepared for lunch. Because of that,our lunch is undercooked rice and we don't have dinner. C and I seriously fed up that time. Luckily I've prepared some biscuits. That day is Friday, M prayed for so long time. We gals just have some funny conservation LOL! After that, we had a walk in other's village. Like the day before, they wanted us to laid down but this time is a nightmare. Unfortunately, I laid under the streetlight. Myriad of insects and mosquitoes just flew around me everywhere. So frus that time! After all activities on that night, we had our bath at 1 a.m something. Only SM gang  and a few M & I bathed that time. We so enjoy bathing and washing our hair. So late tho. Maybe because we just bathed before we slept, we had a good sleep compare to the first night.

          On the last day, we had a horrible jungle trekking. We walked to Titi Hayun. At there, we had the role playing activities. There was a airplane crash inside the forest. We, as the rescue team, have to save the survivor. In order to get to meet those survivor (which act by another platun), we had to overcome so many obstacles. We had to pass the river with our shoes and socks on. We had to walk on the slippery rocks. I fell down quite a numbered times and made my legs full of bruises. Some of us even get sucked by the leaches. I had leaches-phobia after I saw it appeared on my shoes. Luckily it didn't sucked my blood. The lunch of that day was the most delicious meal in that three days. At 3.30 p.m, we finally said bye bye to that place.

          I learned a lot through this camp. Especially the inequalities in Malaysia. We can't get away from those inequalities as we stayed in Malaysia. I'm not RCST , but this is the truth. I'm not saying all M weren't good. I met the good one too. But some just don't respect us. How Malaysia is going to improve with this kind of view. I met some other races friends too. For example, the humorous Kanna, the first I friend I have. Although this camp is so torturing, I still think it was a great experience for me. Frankly, I felt regret when I was joining that camp. But now, I think it just the part of my life for me to gain experience. Ok, maybe this kind of camping not suit me, so maybe I won't join again next time. BUT, at least I've tried once in my lifetime. This is life. Life demands for challenges.We ain't gonna live our life without trying anything new and fresh. So when the opportunity knocks, grab it. It's better to regret over the things you did than the things you didn't do.

This too shall pass

 This too shall pass

I accidentally watched this video on Weibo. I'm totally in love with this speaker - Prince Ea and all of his inspirational and motivational video. It does inspire people, at least, me. I love the way he express all his thought, the way he speaks, the way he tries to encourage people who is down or depressed. It's really great. Guys, just spend some time and have a look on it. You'll never regret! I'm gonna post the speech of his awesome video -

Everybody Dies but Not Everybody Lives

It is not death most people are afraid of.

It is getting to the end of life, only to realize that you never truly lived.

NEVER TRULY LIVED

There was a study done, a hospital study on 100 elderly people 

facing death close to their last breath. They were asked to reflect about their life’s biggest regret.

BIGGEST REGRET

Nearly all of them said they regretted not the things they did but the things they didn’t do.

DIDN’T DO

The risks they never took the dreams they didn’t pursue.

DIDN’T PURSUE

I ask you would your last words be; if only I had – hey, you wake up.

HEY YOU

Why do you exist? Life is not meant to simply work, wait for the weekend and pay rent. No, no I don’t know much. But I know this every person on this earth has a gift.

GIFT

And I apologized to the black community but I can no longer pretend Martin Luther King.

MARTIN LUTHER KING

That man never had a dream, that dream had him.

PEOPLE DON’T CHOOSE DREAMS
DREAMS CHOOSE THEM

See people don’t choose dreams, dreams choose them. So the question I’m getting to is, do you have the courage to grab the dream that picked you?

COURAGE

That befit you and grips you; or will you let it get away and slip through?

You know I learned a fact about airplanes the other day. This was – this was so surprising to see, I was talking to a pilot and he told me that many of his passengers think planes are dangerous to fly in. But he said actually, it is a lot more dangerous for a plane to stay on the ground. I say what? Like how does that sound what he said, he said because on the ground. The plane starts to rust.

RUST
MALFUNCTION
WEAR

Malfunction and wear, much faster than it ever would if it was in the air. As I walked away I thought, yeah, makes total sense because planes were built to live in the skies. And every person was built to live out the dream they have inside. So it is perhaps the saddest loss to live a life on the ground without ever taking off.

TAKING OFF

See most of us are afraid of the thief, they comes in the night to steal all of our things. But there is a thief in your mind who is after your dreams. His name is doubt.

DOUBT

If you see him call the cops and keep him away from the kids because he is wanted for murder. So he has killed more dreams than failure ever did. He wears many disguises and like a virus will leave you blinded, divided and turn you into a kinda.

BLINDED
DIVIDED

“KINDA”

See kinda is lethal. You know what kinda is? There is a lot of kinda people, you kinda want a career change, you kinda want to get straight A’s, you kinda want to get in shape. Simple math, no numbers to crunch. If you kinda want something, then you will kinda get the results you want.

What is your dream? What ignites that spark. You can’t kinda want that, you got to want it with every part of your whole heart. Will you struggle? Yeah, yeah… you will struggle, no way around it. You will fall many times, but who’s counting? Just remember, there’s no such thing as a smooth mountain.

SMOOTH MOUNTAIN

If you want to make it to the top then, there are sharp ridges that have to be stepped over. There will be times you get stressed and things you get depressed over. But let me tell you something. Steven Spielberg was rejected from film school three times, three times but he kept going.

KEPT GOING Source: LYBIO.net

The television execs fired Oprah said she was unfit for TV but she kept going. Critics told Beyoncé that she couldn’t sing she went through depression. But she kept going.

KEPT GOING

STRUGGLE & CRITICISM

Struggle and criticisms are prerequisites for greatness. That is the law of this universe and no one escapes it. Because pain is life but you can choose what type? Either the pain on the road to success or the pain of being haunted with regret.

REGRET

You want my advice. Don’t think twice.

DON’T THINK TWICE

We have been given a gift that we call life.

LIFE

So don’t blow it. You’re not defined by your past instead you were born anew in each moment. So own it now.

SO OWN IT NOW

Sometimes you’ve got to leap. And grow your wings on the way down. You better get the shot off before the clock runs out because there is ain’t no over time in life, no do over. And I know what sound like I’m preaching on speaking with force but if you don’t use your gift then you sell not only yourself, but the whole world. Short.

SHORT

So what invention that you have buried in your mind? What idea?

IDEA
CURE
SKILL

What cure? What skill did you have inside to bring out to this universe?

UNI = ONE VERSE = SONG

Uni meaning one, verse meaning song, you have a part to play in this song.

ONE SONG

So grab that microphone and be brave. Sing your heart out on life’s stage. You cannot go back and make a brand new beginning. But you can start now and make a brand new ending.

A BRAND NEW ENDING.

Does it inspire you? Just bear in mind guy, Live our precious life and moment to the fullest, don't ever regret and be brave to pursue your dream and never give up. Cheer!

End.

Silently, that things might change,grow or fail,but the life did go on --Me Before You

 3 Dec 2015 to 3 May 2016. 5 months just passed like this. It's going to the end of my longest holiday of my life. Actually tonight i don't have the mood to blog, but you know,i don't know whether i still have the chance or not. I'm going to start my Form 6 life tomorrow, 4 May. I still can't accept this fact actually. They said, form 6 life don't have the chance to watch television or play any games. It's too busy. Busy of study and co-curriculum. I scare I even don't have the time to open computer. It's tough. I have to let myself work hard and aim high. For my dreams and future, I have to do so.

          I remember I want to have a review on March for my holiday To- Do-List. It comes late. Now I'm going to write about it since my holiday will end in few hours more.The first one, watch drama. Hahaha, this is definitely DONE. I watched a lot. But the regret is, I didn't finish TVD even season one. Sho bad. But the 16 episode is enough for me to love Stephan and Demon.*Drool*. The second one, keeping fit. WTH. I'm getting fatter and fatter. Holiday is meant to eat a lot. I just lazy to exercise. I rather take the time taking nap than exercise. I'm a typical pig. And ya, i get my driving license but i don't drive frequently. Next, part time job, can blogging considered as my part time job? I don't have a job this holiday, quite sad. Maple has updated. My house wifi line just can't continue patching. Oh no, I miss it so much. Erm, i'm not a cooker, but i'm a good cutter. I last time try to become my bro as a chief helper. I help him to cut everything even the hard punkin. English novel?keke, the proudest thing of this holiday. English movie? Yes too. The recent movie that I watched is Marvel- The Civil War. I think it's really nice. Strongly recommended. Cleaning of study room will be carried out in the next few hours. Hahaha XD

          Back to my proudest thing of holiday, reading novel. I don't think I can finish reading even one novel in this holiday. I'm lazy and I know it. The miracle just happened on me. I used 6 days to finish Me Before You which has 500 pages. Maybe I'm interested in this novel so I can watch it within six days. Frankly, it's a super-duper interesting novel. It's about Will Traynor And Louisa Clark. The story is so heart breaking. I cried. Especially the night.... Opps, I'm not going to become a spoiler. Go read it yourself. I've watched the trailer nearly hundred times. Sam and Emilia are awesome! I can't wait for the movie in June. I will remember to bring tissues to the theater. Just live. Love, Will. Even four words like this is enough to make me sad. Here is some lines of Me Before You which I love so much. ( I just listed some)

''I just...want to be a man who has been to a concert with a girl in a red dress. Just for a few minutes more.''

''You only get one life. It's actually your duty to live it as fully as possible.''

''Sometimes, Clark, You are the pretty much the only thing that makes me want to get up in the morning.''

''I don't want you to miss out all the things that someone else could give you'.''


          I just went back from a short vacation to PJ and Genting. Genting is so cold. I like the weather there. I only wore a dress yesterday and go to outdoor for the windy and foggy weather. At last, I totally can't resist then I wore cardigan. It still cool tho.Short trip but I love it. Hope more vacation coming soon. 2.40 a.m right now. It's time to bed. Night.

Every heart has a story to tell.

They tried to bury us. They didn't know we were seeds.

Too much surprise and heart broken things in this few weeks. Where should I start from, there were so many things to tell. Let's start from the beginning of the April month. ( This month is totally fooling me all the way. ) I went to Anugerah Cemerlang. Still feel bored. Still talkative. Still nosy. I had my sis formal on. Oh no, I like white blouse. White is a perfect colour albeit it makes me look fat. I don't care =P After the ceremony,  we went to Yoshiya to have lunch and talk talk talk. It was a B&G gathering, but we just talked separately. We had our second round at Secret recipe. It was a really good time - Sharing and listening. BTW, I experienced something warm. The next day of Anugerah Cemerlang was the day of IPG test. I decided not to go due to transportation and other problems. But my friend keep on persuade me go for it. FYI, I wish to become a teacher too. ( I do have many ambitions actually) One of them even offer a car ride even though her test wasn't on that day. Warmth felt. And one more, one of my BFF came to my house just to send me cookies which i mentioned to her earlier that my family like it. Our house wasn't near! So glad to have them, seriously.

          Besides, I was shortlisted by Maybank to have the online assessment. Marketing question and short time given. Hahaha, I took it not very serious actually, but i received phone call from Maybank for the interview session. Feel shocked totally. Never thought of it. The interview was on Friday, at MWE Plaza, Penang. Frankly, I went to the interview to get experience only. I don't hope for the scholarship keke. It was a nice interview session. I talked a lot. Laughed a lot. They said I'm joyful and enthusiastic. Haha My talkative trait helps me. I almost told them everything of me, especially OC Life. Sharing the growth of me during that hell year. I don't know did I impressed them, but I really enjoyed.

          Ok, now till the saddest of the week. Yea, I didn't get the offer of matriculation. This is suck and I know it. I should be feeling sad of it, but my heart just didn't have those hard feelings. I can feel the tiredness of my heart. It seems like try to escape from the suffer. I want to cry but no tears for me. Although it has second intake, I can't see hope. I don't like the feeling of disappointing, nobody does. Whoever likes bad news. So now, I have to decide whether Form 6 or UTAR. The reason of choosing both of this, I no need spend much money. Maybe for UTAR the accommodation fee. Even though, i don't hope for Matriculation, I still pray for it. Ikr, i'm weird. Form 6 is for my future uni life, UTAR is for my pre-U life. I am hoping that I can study degree in USM after have my foundation in UTAR. If I go to UTAR, I will go with one of my besties. I hope the money stuff doesn't spoil our relationship like what usually happens. Ok, Just let me think.

          Great news for me, I finally finished One Hundred Names by Cecelia Ahern. I like romance novels. I love Love Stories. Usually romance novels attracted me more.  So it was a nice try for me. (Even though I took long time to finish, but still worth a clap right) But then, the storyline is interesting. The main character, Kitty Logan who is a journalist just meet some awesome people when she is trying to write the tribute piece to her mentor who had passed away. This time, I made some notes when I'm reading. It was good! I noted down every feeling I felt about it and also some inspiring quotes. Erm, Spoiler alert.

To seek the truth is not necessarily to go on a mission all guns blazing in order to reveal a lie, neither is it to be particularly ground-breaking - it is simply to get to the heart of what is real.

In those stories, the one I like the most is Ambrose's. Especially when it connected to The Beauty and The Beast. Eva's also not bad! What I've learned is, everybody has a story to tell. Every single ordinary person has an extraordinary story. Even though we felt that our life is boring.  Thanks Cecelia brings us so wonderful piece. Now I'm reading The Time Keeper. Hope I can finish it asap. Hahaha.

          So many good and bad things happened. But i know, God gives me the best.

       

Wolf that doesn't howl

For who so firm that cannot be seduced?

          Due to the hot weather in Kedah, students of Kedah are given a holiday today. Then, my dad plans to bring us to the Big Bad Wolf Book Fair. How exciting I am! I still remembered two years ago, my sis introduced this big book fair to me,the first time i paid a visit. I was like WOW here WOW there. There were so many books! But for me, that time, i didn't like to read English Novel. I don't understand sometimes. Erm now still, though. What I felt about English Fiction was boring and dull. I prefer those Chinese novels since I was small. Last year, I went to BBW too. I went on the first day, I still remembered the scene. It was so crowded!! There was no space between one and other. My parent queued for half an hour more to pay. This totally drove them crazy.

          Last year I bought a lot of books. A series of maze runner and many some i don't even remember the names. I just looked at the description then bought. Then, they were put on my book shelf and were provided a comfortable area to let spider grows. Last year was a busy year. I don't even have time to study. Reading novel is totally NO for me that time. And now, my life is so free. No excuses allow. But there are so many in queue. So i quite regret to buy so many of them. For some, i just lost my interesting on it, even maze runner. FYI, I was a small MR fans before. Hahaha! But then, luckily those books are really cheap!! Guess how much I spent for MR series. It only costs RM40!! Which is the price of one normal fiction! Haha! Worth right~

          These books make me confuse go or no to go this year. I have so many to-read-books, but i still want it more! I can't hold on cheap things actually. Keke. Finally, I decide to go. This year is a lot better. Although it still held in Times Square, they choose a wider place. No more last year too  PEAK problem. But the quantity of books still so scary. I was dizzy after searching for the nice one. Too many books to scan to my eyes. I have listed some books which I want to buy before I come. I wouldn't want to miss any one. 

          After several hours of travelling in the world of books, I decide to buy two fictions only. I promise to myself not going to make the same mistake as last year I made. The two novels I have bought are - The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom & The Longest Ride by Nicholas Sparks. Frankly, I thought TTK is from Cecelia Ahern until I get to my house. Argh! I'm reading one of Cecelia's novel - One Hundred Names. Erm not bad, but just a little bit CHIM. But so sorry to say, I stuck in the second name for so long time. I spent most of my time watching The Vampire Diaries  and so I put it aside FIRST. Haha. As I mentioned TVD, I found TVD too! But ONLY VOLUME THREE!! Argh! I scare it is connected to Volume 1 & 2, so i didn't buy. It was about Stephan's Diary. So sorry Stephan. Same situation to Hunger Game Series and The Mortal Instrument Series. Hell, it just has Mockingjay and City Of Heavenly Fire. It must be joking == Back to my Dear Nicholas Sparks, I don't read any of his novel before. I only watched the film The Best of Me based on his novel. I cried a lot! I love this kind heart-wrenching story. Still remember the best quote of it, I blame you for thinking you knew what was best for me when it was you that was best for me. I hope TLR will never disappoint me! By the way, I'm still sad because I can't find Me Before You by Jojo Meyes. Maybe I should wait for the second edition which the book's cover will print the face of Sam Claflin! *Drool*  

          Lastly, I still hope that I will finish all those books before I continue my studies. Actually, the english novel that I read completely was only TFIOS. Sometimes, I just regret why I don't listen to my bro word's and start to read some English Books. Regret xN times. Maybe if I listen, I may have a good English now. Perhaps.

Taken in 2015. Long hair, still didn't fat like now & sweet smile. I miss the old me.

Bought in 2015.

For 2016.

UNBREAKABLE

I swear I'll find your smile, And put my arms above you, And make you unbreakable.

This line is from Jamie Scott - Unbreakable.

Awww I am in love with this song, INDEED!

Endless repeating still can't get bored.

The guitar part is awesome.

Then, it makes me want to use guitar play on it.

Unluckily, my bro guitar is totally out of tune!

I try to tune it for almost an hour

But the E string just cant get into the right tune

I think it already broke but it still in a SUPER nice condition in sight.

ARGHHHH i just PEKCEK with this

I hope it just the problem of the string, 

NOT THE GUITAR T^T

I just hope everything will be alright,

I dont want to make bro ANGRY Zzzz

It is his DARLING guitar.

By the way,

The funny is, because of UNBREAKABLE, it BREAKS.

It is MARCH now. (Going to be APRIL)

It is a bye-bye month.

Most of my friends leave here,

and continue their journey to somewhere else.

I'm thinking,

when will be my turn?

The future is so unpredictable.

Frankly, I not really want to leave.

The life with no family is suck.

I know right, I'm not independent enough.

I've been thinking to study in Singapore

I confused T.T

It is so far away from my hometown T^T

I will have a serious homesick that time.

Erm, i didn't apply at last.

Regret? Definitely.

And yeah, a happy news to me,

I got my driving license!

One-time-pass.

Hahaha finally no need to go that hell place to get sunburn.

( And no need get scolded by fierce uncle)

Oh yeahhhh!

Still work very hard to improve my english,

I will tackle you someday! :3

 

SPM 2015

I'm here, My dear.

Kudos to all Batch 98, we have reached the end of our worst nightmare - #SPM2015

Yesterday was our  SPM result release date.

Some satisfied, some disappointed.

For me, both.
I have reached my minimum target, Straight A's
Yet, I didnt get A+ for some subjects that I think I should.
I wasn't like others, aiming for Straight A+,
Straight A was enough for me tho.
But then, for certain subjects,
I still hope to get A+
Erm ya, like biology (This is my fav subject!)
And I was shocked when i noticed i didn't get A+ for MM
Gosh....
I thought I  did well

My bro asked me to appeal, it was important on applying for scholarship or matrik
After thinking one night, I decided not to appeal.
Maybe I will not getting offer to matrik (i hope that i can la)
BUT,
Every road leads to Rome.
I can still continue my studies in form six.
This road is tough and i know it. T.T
A life without challenges wasn't a perfect life.
I'm gonna pay all hard work to let myself achieve one small dream in my life.
Study local university, for more specific,
USM is my dream uni.
''Fault'' of USM chinese orchestra.
If not i can have a better dream Uni, maybe overseas(?)
Hahaha, just joking.
But then if I have the chance to study overseas,
I have to apologize to my dream hahaha!

For courses, I'm still thinking.
Education? Accountant? Field of Biology?
This is hard to choose!
DAMN HARD!
We just end our SPM journey,
and now we going to worry about our future.
This is the troublesome one.
Before starting my another journey,
I hope I can prepare myself ready for every challenges.
I still left two months,
I gotta polish my English!!!!

I gotta bear in mind,
Don't stop hard work.

Because all hard work will pay off.

Still have to thanks myself for those days which i never surrender,
The reward is, my parents proud of it!

Cheer it up!

Bangkok Trip 2016

At first, I have to wish HAPPY CNY.

( Although it's already Chor 9, but it's still CNY-ing )

I'm here to share my amazing BANGKOK TRIP during CNY!

Erm, it's actually started on 6 Jan which CNY didn't start yet

This trip comes suprisingly.

My family just planed it one week before we go

So, it may be a lil expensive on the hotel and the flight ticket.

( Erm actually i think still considered cheap but my bro said can be CHEAPER! )

_____6 Jan 2016_____

We had our flight from Hatyai to Bangkok.

As usual, we had our train ride to hatyai.

We had our early lunch at the famous seafood restaurant - 甘英餐厅

Then, Kitty , the Tuk Tuk driver who my dad usually finds him when we have our trip in hatyai to send us to Hatyai International Airport.

After several hours waiting, finally it's time for us to FLY!

It was the first time flying experience to my yiyi and younger sis.

Although I'm not the first time, I still feel the same excitement with them.

I sat beside the window pane which is behind the airplane wing!

The angle to take picture is totally AWESOME!

And the most lucky one, I had the chance to watch the sun set down.

I still remembered the last time when i flew to taiwan,

I wanted to snap down the moment when sun sets,

but then after i came back from toilet,

It's all BLACK!

Gosh.....

But this time, i recorded it !

Yeahhhhh btw it was damn fast! hahaha

When we reached Don Muang airport, it was 7 smtg.

So, we rent 2 taxi to send us to our hotel - Check Inn Chinatown Hotel.

Erm Chinatown doesn't have a convenient tranportation system.

The only MRT is far from our hotel.

We also don't know how to sit public buses, so only taxi.

But their taxi fees is quite fair, it calculated by meter.

Our hotel is considered hard to find, because it hides in a backstreet.

Inside the hotel room has one small kitchen and toilet.

Ermm toilet is the most important! 

After that, we had our long walk to the hectic CHINATOWN!

Chinatown is fulled of people, stalls and cars.

We have our pre-dinner at the stall of Keoy Teow Soup before we have our seafood dinner in T&K Seafood ( Because Internet said it had to wait for a long time)

But then we prove it wrong, hahahahha 

It was fullhouse, but we only spend like 10 smtg and we can taste the delicious seafood!!

We ordered crab and prawn fried rice, fried mee, prawn, sotong, curry crab! 

Oh Gosh!! Those were really mouth-watering!

Lunch - 甘英 Seafood

While Waiting For Flight. Izit Artistic AF?

This is HEAVEN!

The Sunset.

Our first family flight!

Chinatown (Capture on the next day)

Dinner - T&K Seafood
This is Yummy! I swear i didn't lie!

The Hot And Spicy Sotong!!!

_____7 Jan 2016_____

Hahaha I have to say, the pillow and the bed of hotel made me don't want to wake up everytime.

My dad and yiyi woke up so early and went to seek for breakfast.

Erm, it was 7am in Bangkok time and 8am in Malaysia time

The stalls and shops still didn't open yet 

The early birds doesn't always get the worm.

Hahaha, after prepared everything, we went to powerful 7-11 to search for our breakfast.

We took our breakfast while heading to the pier of Chao Phraya River.

Some sandwiches and hotdogs which are hot.

Simple yet nice!

We had a ferry ride to the Grand Palace first.

It was very cheap, though.

So what I learned in Geografi when I Form2 is correct,

Menam Chao Phraya is one of the important transportation in Thai.

It leaves you from bumper-to-bumper traffic, but gives you ''body-to-body crowd''

Our first stop of the day was The Grand Palace.

Ok. I am serious. This is definitely hundred times crowded than the ferry!

The Grand Palace is crowded with tourists! 

The  buildings were quite nice but then i have a bad memory there.

Zzzzz.... and finally we don't visit the inside part of it because it costs us RM50 per person

Then, we sat crossing-river ferry to the opposite and had a visit in  Wat Rakang.

My dad wanted to visit there for long times ago.

And now, his dream achieved!

The ambience of Wat Rakang and The Grand Palace was totally different.

In Wat Rakang, mostly were Siam residence.

They mostly with their palm close but not with the camera.

After that, we sat the crossing-river ferry again and took a taxi to the biggest market in Thai- Chatuchak Weekend Market
It's really big! Erm i think i should use huge (?)

Endless stalls which sold shoes, dress, souvenirs, crafting, food etc
The dress and shirts only cost 100 Baht which is RM12 smtg.
This definetely cannot be found in the market of Malaysia!
I found the fake BIRKEN there
The design looks so alike! Haaha but not comfortable as the real one
After the long time shopping there, we had our simple dinner at the stall
Then, we went to another Night Market - Rot Fai Train Market
It wasn't near
We have to sit MRT then BTS then Taxi then Walk
BUT, it's WORTH!
The things sell here is cheaper! I bought  pant for only 70 Baht!
This market also ENDLESS
When we thought we already finish shopped all the stalls, then we found 100++ stalls more
Pity to our feet actually, they walked alot!
My sis Iphone calculated we almost walked 13km that day!
And one thing to mention, we walked a lot that day,
but we dont  even have one drop of SWEAT !!
The weather was PERFECT!
( Erm although sweat let me feel the sense of accomplishment more )
We even shivered because of the cold wind!
(Especially in the open space)
Only 16 degree that time!
Hahaha back to the Market
Then we had our supper at the food stalls!
Tomyam is a must in thai!
We saw stall which sells fried insects.
Yuck. No one of us dares to try.

After that, we had taxi back to chinatown.
Luckily, the time we reach chinatown was 00.00am
We able to watch they put on firecrackers to celebrate CNY!
It makes me feel like I'm in Malaysia too!

Act Like A Tourist 

Pier Of Chao Phraya River 

Erm, the river is cloudy ><

The Grand Palace.

I don't like that troublesome sarung actually 

It's crowded!

The Chatuchak Market.

The guy behind me had a nice photoboom!

My lovely family!

Strongly suggested this small coffee shop inside Chatuchak Market.
It's cheap and delicious!
The best choice for teatime when you get tired of shopping!
But then, you have to find this shop out first! haha! 

Must try - Roasted Pork

Rot Fai Market

Food stalls inside the market

Vintage Feel Scenery

Again, My Lovely Family!

_____8 Jan 2016_____

This day, we had to check out hotel and move to hotel in Sukumvit - Royal Ivory Hotel.
Then we walked to the Hua Lamphong MRT station which is 2km from out hotel!
Don't feel it's easy! We were with our luggage!
Sometimes, we have to carry the heavy luggage when the road is unfavourable to let us pull them.
And bad news here, the wheels of the luggage malfunction!
Arghhh!
But, we still successful reach the MRT station by our foot!
Again, MRT then BTS.
We stopped at the Nana station and started our walking journey again to find our hotel!
Seriously speaking, the service of that hotel is bad and the toilet is smelly!
Arghh! Bad review for it!

Then, we moved to MBK Shopping Centre which is located at Siam
That area is surrounded by shopping malls.
The shopping malls there were connected together!
But we only go to MBK because internet said it's worth to go
Erm we had our lunch there.
My dad too impetuous ,6 people but 8 set lunch!
Our stomach like gonna blew out.
Erm, luckily we shopped  after our overloaded lunch.
For me, i think it's nothing to buy there compare to market.
It wasn't branded but the price wasn't cheap.
(Maybe it's cheap for others)
Again, prove internet wrong .

After that, we walked to Plantinum Fashion Mall.
Alas, this was a really long walk! T^T
Luckily i didn't faint away half way.
PFM more worth to go compare to MBK
It is a very big complex.
For women, it would be paradise because there mostly sold women's wear.
For men, only a few section!
My bro keep on complaining how unfair it is! Haha...
Around 8p.m, the mall closed, but the street market started.
Girl's accessories, DIY shirts, DIY bags and all kind of stuffs were sold there.
Finally settle my gals souvenir there.
You know it wasn't easy to find souvenir for a gang of 11 people!
For those are cheap, it wasn't nice.
For those are nice, it wasn't cheap.
( It must times with 11)
I also bought a DIY T-shirts which have my name on it.
It's so special!
(I don't know whether it will be weird anot if I wear on street)

We had our late dinner on Sukhumvit Road.
Erm, the street which the hotel I stayed is all pub.
GG actually.
All amolang and chicken hahaha
We walked quite far away from hotel to find our dinner.
We found a seafood restaurant and the price is damn cheap!
Erm not tasty as T&K Seafood but still not bad!

Siblings - I have my sunglass for only 100 Baht.
And yeah, 5 people in the back seat of taxi.

Lunch - The Fifth Avenue Food Court

Teatime

T-shirt with my name is producing!

Our dinner which cost only 700 Baht. (+ Pot ) 

We have steamboat too! But inside the pot!

_____9 Jan 2016_____

It's time to say goodbye to Bangkok!
For those who want to travel to Bangkok, remember 4 days wasn't enough!
Because two days is used to wait flights and train.
So regret I didn't have the chance to have a look in Terminal 21.
Can I say, ''Nevermind, we will visit there again.''
I think my dad will cry when I say this, hahaah!

I want to build this everywhere!

Candid Shot ( Forgive me for my rude pose)

Must Try in Thai - Mango Sticky Rice

Must Try in Thai - Coconut Ice Cream

- Bangkok Trip - End -