Every heart has a story to tell.

They tried to bury us. They didn't know we were seeds.

Too much surprise and heart broken things in this few weeks. Where should I start from, there were so many things to tell. Let's start from the beginning of the April month. ( This month is totally fooling me all the way. ) I went to Anugerah Cemerlang. Still feel bored. Still talkative. Still nosy. I had my sis formal on. Oh no, I like white blouse. White is a perfect colour albeit it makes me look fat. I don't care =P After the ceremony,  we went to Yoshiya to have lunch and talk talk talk. It was a B&G gathering, but we just talked separately. We had our second round at Secret recipe. It was a really good time - Sharing and listening. BTW, I experienced something warm. The next day of Anugerah Cemerlang was the day of IPG test. I decided not to go due to transportation and other problems. But my friend keep on persuade me go for it. FYI, I wish to become a teacher too. ( I do have many ambitions actually) One of them even offer a car ride even though her test wasn't on that day. Warmth felt. And one more, one of my BFF came to my house just to send me cookies which i mentioned to her earlier that my family like it. Our house wasn't near! So glad to have them, seriously.

          Besides, I was shortlisted by Maybank to have the online assessment. Marketing question and short time given. Hahaha, I took it not very serious actually, but i received phone call from Maybank for the interview session. Feel shocked totally. Never thought of it. The interview was on Friday, at MWE Plaza, Penang. Frankly, I went to the interview to get experience only. I don't hope for the scholarship keke. It was a nice interview session. I talked a lot. Laughed a lot. They said I'm joyful and enthusiastic. Haha My talkative trait helps me. I almost told them everything of me, especially OC Life. Sharing the growth of me during that hell year. I don't know did I impressed them, but I really enjoyed.

          Ok, now till the saddest of the week. Yea, I didn't get the offer of matriculation. This is suck and I know it. I should be feeling sad of it, but my heart just didn't have those hard feelings. I can feel the tiredness of my heart. It seems like try to escape from the suffer. I want to cry but no tears for me. Although it has second intake, I can't see hope. I don't like the feeling of disappointing, nobody does. Whoever likes bad news. So now, I have to decide whether Form 6 or UTAR. The reason of choosing both of this, I no need spend much money. Maybe for UTAR the accommodation fee. Even though, i don't hope for Matriculation, I still pray for it. Ikr, i'm weird. Form 6 is for my future uni life, UTAR is for my pre-U life. I am hoping that I can study degree in USM after have my foundation in UTAR. If I go to UTAR, I will go with one of my besties. I hope the money stuff doesn't spoil our relationship like what usually happens. Ok, Just let me think.

          Great news for me, I finally finished One Hundred Names by Cecelia Ahern. I like romance novels. I love Love Stories. Usually romance novels attracted me more.  So it was a nice try for me. (Even though I took long time to finish, but still worth a clap right) But then, the storyline is interesting. The main character, Kitty Logan who is a journalist just meet some awesome people when she is trying to write the tribute piece to her mentor who had passed away. This time, I made some notes when I'm reading. It was good! I noted down every feeling I felt about it and also some inspiring quotes. Erm, Spoiler alert.

To seek the truth is not necessarily to go on a mission all guns blazing in order to reveal a lie, neither is it to be particularly ground-breaking - it is simply to get to the heart of what is real.

In those stories, the one I like the most is Ambrose's. Especially when it connected to The Beauty and The Beast. Eva's also not bad! What I've learned is, everybody has a story to tell. Every single ordinary person has an extraordinary story. Even though we felt that our life is boring.  Thanks Cecelia brings us so wonderful piece. Now I'm reading The Time Keeper. Hope I can finish it asap. Hahaha.

          So many good and bad things happened. But i know, God gives me the best.

       

Wolf that doesn't howl

For who so firm that cannot be seduced?

          Due to the hot weather in Kedah, students of Kedah are given a holiday today. Then, my dad plans to bring us to the Big Bad Wolf Book Fair. How exciting I am! I still remembered two years ago, my sis introduced this big book fair to me,the first time i paid a visit. I was like WOW here WOW there. There were so many books! But for me, that time, i didn't like to read English Novel. I don't understand sometimes. Erm now still, though. What I felt about English Fiction was boring and dull. I prefer those Chinese novels since I was small. Last year, I went to BBW too. I went on the first day, I still remembered the scene. It was so crowded!! There was no space between one and other. My parent queued for half an hour more to pay. This totally drove them crazy.

          Last year I bought a lot of books. A series of maze runner and many some i don't even remember the names. I just looked at the description then bought. Then, they were put on my book shelf and were provided a comfortable area to let spider grows. Last year was a busy year. I don't even have time to study. Reading novel is totally NO for me that time. And now, my life is so free. No excuses allow. But there are so many in queue. So i quite regret to buy so many of them. For some, i just lost my interesting on it, even maze runner. FYI, I was a small MR fans before. Hahaha! But then, luckily those books are really cheap!! Guess how much I spent for MR series. It only costs RM40!! Which is the price of one normal fiction! Haha! Worth right~

          These books make me confuse go or no to go this year. I have so many to-read-books, but i still want it more! I can't hold on cheap things actually. Keke. Finally, I decide to go. This year is a lot better. Although it still held in Times Square, they choose a wider place. No more last year too  PEAK problem. But the quantity of books still so scary. I was dizzy after searching for the nice one. Too many books to scan to my eyes. I have listed some books which I want to buy before I come. I wouldn't want to miss any one. 

          After several hours of travelling in the world of books, I decide to buy two fictions only. I promise to myself not going to make the same mistake as last year I made. The two novels I have bought are - The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom & The Longest Ride by Nicholas Sparks. Frankly, I thought TTK is from Cecelia Ahern until I get to my house. Argh! I'm reading one of Cecelia's novel - One Hundred Names. Erm not bad, but just a little bit CHIM. But so sorry to say, I stuck in the second name for so long time. I spent most of my time watching The Vampire Diaries  and so I put it aside FIRST. Haha. As I mentioned TVD, I found TVD too! But ONLY VOLUME THREE!! Argh! I scare it is connected to Volume 1 & 2, so i didn't buy. It was about Stephan's Diary. So sorry Stephan. Same situation to Hunger Game Series and The Mortal Instrument Series. Hell, it just has Mockingjay and City Of Heavenly Fire. It must be joking == Back to my Dear Nicholas Sparks, I don't read any of his novel before. I only watched the film The Best of Me based on his novel. I cried a lot! I love this kind heart-wrenching story. Still remember the best quote of it, I blame you for thinking you knew what was best for me when it was you that was best for me. I hope TLR will never disappoint me! By the way, I'm still sad because I can't find Me Before You by Jojo Meyes. Maybe I should wait for the second edition which the book's cover will print the face of Sam Claflin! *Drool*  

          Lastly, I still hope that I will finish all those books before I continue my studies. Actually, the english novel that I read completely was only TFIOS. Sometimes, I just regret why I don't listen to my bro word's and start to read some English Books. Regret xN times. Maybe if I listen, I may have a good English now. Perhaps.

Taken in 2015. Long hair, still didn't fat like now & sweet smile. I miss the old me.

Bought in 2015.

For 2016.